Love at first sight.. So I thought.

You know in your life that is that one person when you first saw him or her for the first time you thought " oh my god, I think I am in-love" I am one of the people who happen to be lucky enough to have know that person in my life and his name is "Mr. D"

Mr. D at his home 

The story start when I was just a confused young boy at 16 year old. I met Mr.D in a club call " Liquid". It was the Christmas eves party I was queueing to get my drink when this man behind me said to me that I am cutting in line I turn around and there he was Mr. D. He was blonde and handsome speak with an American accent. I can't believe I didn't notice him when I was in the queue. I straight away offer my apology and hoping that he will stay and talk to me a little bit more. In the next few minute I learn that he is from L.A and teach in the university in Japan. He is on his Christmas and New Year holiday passing Kuala Lumpur to go to Bali. We have stay together most of the night drinking and dancing it was one the most wonderful time I had in my life. 

Mr. D in Iwankuni Bridge, Japan

The next few day we went out for lunch and dinner it was lovely but like all good party must come to an end his time for leaving KL has come. We said our good bye and promise to stay in touch. As you  know being 16 year old you must have done something stupid that you wish you can take back. Oh boy, Did I do something stupid... The very next day after he left I kept my promise for keeping in touch so I decided that I will send him an email to said hello but the feeling I have inside was stronger than just want to said hello so I make my first foolish mistake with him. I wrote to him and declare that I was hopelessly in love with him but the minute I click the send button the feeling of foolish and regret follow. Crazy thought keep pop into my head " who do I think I am? He already said to me he has a partner? What was I expect him to said back to me? " So I start another email to him just to tell him that I make a foolish mistake hoping that he will just ignore my last email. 

Mr. D in Iwankuni Bridge, Japan

After few days long wait he reply with the sweetest message saying that he understand the feeling and asking me don't worried about the email he found it really sweet that we should remind good friends. Despite I wrote him the email and deny my feeling to him but at the time I knew that my feeling was real. In the next few years whenever he is in KL we always meet to have a drink or dinner but every time I saw him the feeling I have are much stronger than the time before and I try to hide my feeling inside so he won't know. 

That is until 8 years I saw him for the last time for dinner before I move to England. I have told him that my feeling for him was un-change since I wrote him that silly email. I also ask him not to do anything to said anything back to me because I want our friendship to last.  

On the train to see Mr. D in Hiroshima.

Think back of all this memoirs when I was on the train to see Mr.D in Hiroshima. I was worried after all this year how would I feel when I saw him again? Turn out is easy, It was like we just saw each other yesterday. We both can't believe it has been Almost 8 years that we did not see each other. We talk and drink and talk more again. In the mean time I still try to search the feeling I once have. You know what people said time can change people. It did change me. I finally understand that the feeling I once had was the feeling of all young people will have you want the thing that you can get. I was 16 and he was 35 he live in Japan and I live in Malaysia.  We are worlds apart but I am glad that he has been my friend and my love as first sight... so I thought. 

Me and Mr. D

Mr. D bringing me to buy a Kimono

Mr. D and I was on a Boat to an Island

Mr. D and I on that Island

I stayed in Hiroshima for 5 days and I had a wonderful time to see my dear friend and know that despite my foolish self and mistake I make in the past. I can still manage to keep a friend this long. 

I am very grateful for our friendship and thank you for taking so much of your time to show me around Hiroshima.

Thanks Damon, you have enrich my life and beyond. 

The one and only yet lovely - Juan

Juan - I met Juan when I was in my first University "Istituto Marangoni" he was fun and care free is like nothing seem to matter to him. Juan live in Tokyo and he was coming to London to study a same fashion course as me. At the time he is only one of the four peoples  in our class who speak and understand english that include me as well.  I guess that is how I started to become friends.

Just remember this picture taken 5 years ago 

Class in Marangoni

Me N Juan 2005

It is come to no surprise that over the year he is the only person in the class I have keep in touch with. I know from the beginning he will do well in his career. Whenever I think of him I will always write him an email or try to call him but his respond is always short but sweet but one thing without fail at all time is he will always ask me to visit him in Tokyo. I will always said soon. 

This is Juan visiting me in London in 2008,

When I'm still haven't to keep my promise and visit in Tokyo yet.

When I decide to begin this  new journey of my life Japan was not in my mind but one night when I was sitting at my office and looking through some old photo of my self and the events that have happen to me for the past few years. This promise come to mind so at that very moment I have decide that I will see Juan in Tokyo. So I pick up the phone and call him right away asking him will it be possible for me to come and visit maybe staying with him for a few days without thinking he answer was " YES".

Welcome to Japan

After countless emails and call back and front of how are we going to do this, I finally arrived in Japan  But at times I still can't believe that I am in Japan. I always know Juan is a very busy and hard working person but I have no idea how hard working until I saw it with my own eyes. Once he had pick me up from Shibuya station he ask me is it ok that I wait at his office for an hours or two until he finish work.  Of course after a long day of traveling with tons of people and crying baby on the plane I am very happy to have some quite alone time. At around 7.30 PM he came in to the meeting room and told that he is finish now that we are going out for dinner with his partner and friends.  I can't help myself but ask him did he always work this late? he said that this is the earliest that he had finish work 

in a while normally he finished at 10 PM or midnight and starting all over again at 7 AM. I was truly Shocked. That night I met his lovely partner and friends for a wonderful dinner. It was Prefect. 

This is where Juan is living,

Nice Area, 

Love It.

Here I am after 5 years of talk of not action,

I finally in Tokyo and see the lovely but tired Juan. 

Due to the busy life of Juan and his partner " Simone" my visit was short but sweet. At the last night I was in Tokyo before traveling south of Japan. Juan once again finish work early and decide to cook dinner for me. I was very touch by it. 

Lovely dinner that Juan cooked for me. 

Juan and his partner Simone

The very next day I left Tokyo for Hiroshima. When I was on the train to Hiroshima I can't help but wonder Juan is only 2-3 years older than me and he work harder than anyone I have ever seen and his partner still support him a 100% that is what a true relationship is all about. I am truly happy for both of them and wishes them all the best in their future.

I want to really thank you Juan for hosting me and teaching me so much. I hope I can see you soon. 

Love

Danny

As Promise.. The Place I've Travel So Far ...

I know I know....  It has been awhile again since I wrote something on the blog but please forgive me I am having tired but good time learning new things, discovering new places, experiencing new culture and Sharing good old time with old friends...   Oh MY God... Am I have lots to share.. Yes.. I have.. 

What a Cute Baby My God Son "Sydney"

After rushing around finishing designed a fall collection and said goodbye to friend and my god son family, I finally pack up my suitcases and began journey to the unknown. If you going to the place that is unknown to you, you better do some search first or have someone you know who live in the place of unknown doing for you. I guess I've been brought up well to want people do thing for you or help you, you first must give them what you think they need or something from your heart. 

Danny Tang " Fall/Winter 2011" Collection

So I journey to Singapore again to help my friend get what he needed it " nespresso coffee capsules ". You would think that for a famous brand like that you can get the capsules everywhere but you will be wrong. The only place you can get it is in Singapore. 

Believe it This is the only place you can get the " nespresso coffee capsules"

After 19 hours in Singapore, I drag my sorry ass of the hotel room bed at 3 am and check out on my way to my first unknown country - Japan. I have never been on a flight this early in my life nor that I ever want to again but hey! you have to try everything once and this hopefully is on my only 5.35 am flight. 

My first Sight of Japan

Yes... I know.. I look like "SHIT"

Welcome To Japan

Can you tell ME... Am I  in JAPAN now?

I am so sorry is 2.40 am in Japan .. too tired to continue writing.. Promise I will tell you more very soon... 

Part One End...

A House Is No Longer My Home ... But My Love For You Will Be Forever Be The Same..

It has been a while since I wrote something here. For the past week I am has been doing a lots of soul searching about my present and my future. What I was try to said is that I have been sad and afraid. I soon realise being afraid and sad will only last for a short moment.

After months of planning, several meeting with the lawyer and countless emails I finally did it I have sign one of the most important contract in my life and is official I sold my apartment which I have the honour owning and love for the past 5 years. Now it will have new owner hopefully that will love this place as much as I do.

I'm sure peoples who has to let go something they have love so much for them to give up and move into a better future but the fact still remind that you are  going to be sad and you need time to heal and grief for the things that you lost. 

Take this apartment for an example I am not only losing an apartment. I am losing a home and a future that I have envision. So I understand that I need to start grieving for that future and all the hope and dream I have envision for this place because now there are gone or shall I said no longer mine. There  is a wonderful saying " You have to give up the life you plan to find the life that is waiting for you. In all our life's we grown by giving up thing's  that you once loved.

 How we handle those loses can really define who we are.

Sometimes in life you trying so hard  to do things or change something but life's  just didn't seem to work out and that feeling of  lost,  disappointment and sadness need time to grief as well it doesn't matter how big or small the situation is. If you don't acknowledge it and feel the pain and disappointment it will never get out of your way. After you accept all of the painful feeling and come out of the other end you will go some place new and meet people that it make you feel worth while again. Then you will be able to see what is right there, right in front of your eye that is all so clear then the little pieces of your broken soul and disappointment will finally begin to faint.

 I want to take this opportunity to Thanks Chris Frankland. I would like to thanks him for giving strength when I was weak, leading me your shoulder when I was crying, being patient with me when I was nonsensical and through it all we both know that we have survive and we became a better and stronger person. 

Finally, I would like to Thank You C-29-05 Seri Maya

Thank you for allowing me to be with you for the past 5 years

Thank you for giving me the joy of  being there

Thank you for loving me 

It was my honour for the past 5 years to being your owner

I will never forget you. 

Thank You 

Love

Danny

My Home or Not My Home - Kuala Lumpur??

                          

Coming back to the familiar. The same airport I have been in and out for the past 7 years ( KLIA )
Every time I come back to KL I always have a feeling of making a mistake because this is where so many unhappy thing had happen to me yet is it still my home and my family is still here. Family.... is really the biggest problem of my life. I can respect them and they have their way of thinking but do I need to feel bad every time I am back do I need to feel like is a mistake? Mistake or not I am back at least for the next 2 weeks.

Family - as usual they have an opinion about my traveling I understand the fact that they are thinking for my well being in the future but without a happy present where can you find a happy future. I am not saying that what I am doing or decide to do in the future good for me they might be right about I might just wasting my time doing this trip but I truly believe if this is the biggest mistake I will be making i need to make them first before I will know the outcome. Plus if I have listen to them in the past or give up and follow their advise I won't be who I am today. So mistake or not at this very moment I am going to continue with it.

                                                      
                                                        Me and My very dear friend BOY

Best Friends - Now that is a different story I always value my friendship with people because I understand is easy to make new friends but to keep them is hard. Over the years my friends come and go some became closer, some became distance, some become your life suppose and some become someone who is trying to kill you openly or silently but the one who stay friend with you through your up and down is the one you should care the most for. Yes, sometime you don't agree with them and sometime they will not agree with you but you know that they are there to support you when you needed them.

Over all my first night in KL it has been up and down. So is KL my home or not my home... I guess is still too early in life to find out.

                                             P.S. This is my Apartment in Kuala Lumpur

One Night Only... In Singapore.

So much has happen for the past 48 hours. Flight with someone verbally, saying good bye emotionally and arriving in some place new unexpectedly.

Me at the Airport leaving London

Leaving London for me is one of the hardest thing I have to do depend the up and down of the past few months making me make this decision to go on this new journey London has been one place in my life that I did not move away for the past 7 years also know as my adult life.


All my plan about life, love, career and family just coming to a stop or maybe I should said is taking a new turn.

Arriving in Singapore make me feel weird I know that I have friends and even family here but somehow just feel like they are going to look at me differently but I guess that is just what I feel.

Me, Christine and Irene ( Cousin )

The place my Cousin Take me to Dinner.

One thing I kind of learn tonight is that you can never guess how you going to feel or how people is going to feel about you until the matter has happen. I am very happy I have make my first step I still don't know is the decision I make is the right one or not but at least for now I am enjoying the unknown. 

Me and Phillippe 

Merci beaucoup Philippe pour une nuit de rêve ...

One Past End, Another Present Begin.

For as long as I can remember, I would like to see the world and experience LIFE as traveler. I know is very laughable to said it out loud because most people in the world have the same dream and want the same experience as me what make me any different. Anyhow unlike most people who don't have the chance to do it I am taking the first step to begin my journey. Maybe I started my traveler journey too late or maybe is too early but all I know is a start. ( Just like this Blog I am starting )

Wise man once said when some part of your life come to an end you need to quickly make another start and my new journey start here. I am making history ( my past ) and waiting for mystery ( my future ) accepting and being thankful my gift of " The Present ".

This Journey might be a small step for mankind but is surely is the biggest step I have taken in my adult life. I would like go out and see the world and to share new experience to the world.


This is some of the place I will be visiting ( only example photo )

I will show you the real one once I am there. Promise..

Love

Danny