A House Is No Longer My Home ... But My Love For You Will Be Forever Be The Same..

It has been a while since I wrote something here. For the past week I am has been doing a lots of soul searching about my present and my future. What I was try to said is that I have been sad and afraid. I soon realise being afraid and sad will only last for a short moment.

After months of planning, several meeting with the lawyer and countless emails I finally did it I have sign one of the most important contract in my life and is official I sold my apartment which I have the honour owning and love for the past 5 years. Now it will have new owner hopefully that will love this place as much as I do.

I'm sure peoples who has to let go something they have love so much for them to give up and move into a better future but the fact still remind that you are  going to be sad and you need time to heal and grief for the things that you lost. 

Take this apartment for an example I am not only losing an apartment. I am losing a home and a future that I have envision. So I understand that I need to start grieving for that future and all the hope and dream I have envision for this place because now there are gone or shall I said no longer mine. There  is a wonderful saying " You have to give up the life you plan to find the life that is waiting for you. In all our life's we grown by giving up thing's  that you once loved.

 How we handle those loses can really define who we are.

Sometimes in life you trying so hard  to do things or change something but life's  just didn't seem to work out and that feeling of  lost,  disappointment and sadness need time to grief as well it doesn't matter how big or small the situation is. If you don't acknowledge it and feel the pain and disappointment it will never get out of your way. After you accept all of the painful feeling and come out of the other end you will go some place new and meet people that it make you feel worth while again. Then you will be able to see what is right there, right in front of your eye that is all so clear then the little pieces of your broken soul and disappointment will finally begin to faint.

 I want to take this opportunity to Thanks Chris Frankland. I would like to thanks him for giving strength when I was weak, leading me your shoulder when I was crying, being patient with me when I was nonsensical and through it all we both know that we have survive and we became a better and stronger person. 

Finally, I would like to Thank You C-29-05 Seri Maya

Thank you for allowing me to be with you for the past 5 years

Thank you for giving me the joy of  being there

Thank you for loving me 

It was my honour for the past 5 years to being your owner

I will never forget you. 

Thank You 

Love

Danny

My Home or Not My Home - Kuala Lumpur??

                          

Coming back to the familiar. The same airport I have been in and out for the past 7 years ( KLIA )
Every time I come back to KL I always have a feeling of making a mistake because this is where so many unhappy thing had happen to me yet is it still my home and my family is still here. Family.... is really the biggest problem of my life. I can respect them and they have their way of thinking but do I need to feel bad every time I am back do I need to feel like is a mistake? Mistake or not I am back at least for the next 2 weeks.

Family - as usual they have an opinion about my traveling I understand the fact that they are thinking for my well being in the future but without a happy present where can you find a happy future. I am not saying that what I am doing or decide to do in the future good for me they might be right about I might just wasting my time doing this trip but I truly believe if this is the biggest mistake I will be making i need to make them first before I will know the outcome. Plus if I have listen to them in the past or give up and follow their advise I won't be who I am today. So mistake or not at this very moment I am going to continue with it.

                                                      
                                                        Me and My very dear friend BOY

Best Friends - Now that is a different story I always value my friendship with people because I understand is easy to make new friends but to keep them is hard. Over the years my friends come and go some became closer, some became distance, some become your life suppose and some become someone who is trying to kill you openly or silently but the one who stay friend with you through your up and down is the one you should care the most for. Yes, sometime you don't agree with them and sometime they will not agree with you but you know that they are there to support you when you needed them.

Over all my first night in KL it has been up and down. So is KL my home or not my home... I guess is still too early in life to find out.

                                             P.S. This is my Apartment in Kuala Lumpur

One Night Only... In Singapore.

So much has happen for the past 48 hours. Flight with someone verbally, saying good bye emotionally and arriving in some place new unexpectedly.

Me at the Airport leaving London

Leaving London for me is one of the hardest thing I have to do depend the up and down of the past few months making me make this decision to go on this new journey London has been one place in my life that I did not move away for the past 7 years also know as my adult life.


All my plan about life, love, career and family just coming to a stop or maybe I should said is taking a new turn.

Arriving in Singapore make me feel weird I know that I have friends and even family here but somehow just feel like they are going to look at me differently but I guess that is just what I feel.

Me, Christine and Irene ( Cousin )

The place my Cousin Take me to Dinner.

One thing I kind of learn tonight is that you can never guess how you going to feel or how people is going to feel about you until the matter has happen. I am very happy I have make my first step I still don't know is the decision I make is the right one or not but at least for now I am enjoying the unknown. 

Me and Phillippe 

Merci beaucoup Philippe pour une nuit de rêve ...

One Past End, Another Present Begin.

For as long as I can remember, I would like to see the world and experience LIFE as traveler. I know is very laughable to said it out loud because most people in the world have the same dream and want the same experience as me what make me any different. Anyhow unlike most people who don't have the chance to do it I am taking the first step to begin my journey. Maybe I started my traveler journey too late or maybe is too early but all I know is a start. ( Just like this Blog I am starting )

Wise man once said when some part of your life come to an end you need to quickly make another start and my new journey start here. I am making history ( my past ) and waiting for mystery ( my future ) accepting and being thankful my gift of " The Present ".

This Journey might be a small step for mankind but is surely is the biggest step I have taken in my adult life. I would like go out and see the world and to share new experience to the world.


This is some of the place I will be visiting ( only example photo )

I will show you the real one once I am there. Promise..

Love

Danny